New Year

So it’s that time again. It’s the New Year. New decade. And of course time for those resolutions. Mine… that I will be maintaining goes as follow:
1) Lose weight – my roommate from college is having her wedding in October and I’m in it. It’s in Florida and the dresses she is looking at are gorgeous. There for I want to look good in them so losing weight is the only option. Everything is healthy though. Healthy foods, only good carbs and lean protein, gallon of water a day, and of course working out. I’ve done all this before and it’s worked. I just have to keep at it.
2) Find a new job – just not happy where I am plus I want to do something I studied in
3) Stay in contact with my friends more. Be the person to call.

I plan on number 1 and 3 to last past this actual year. To all of you reading (if anyone really reads this) and you have a resolution or a few. GOOD LUCK!

Grandma-Isms Part 1

Dec 15 - yesterday... my grandma woke up from her nap and said "a man just came to me in my sleep and gave me the number 188, i don't know what that means but we should buy a ticket" we did but unfortunately for my grandma 188 came out the night before!

Dec 10 - Grandma's quote of the day: "in order to be successful you need to get in (business) with a jew" ... fyi. we're not jewish. :)

Dec. 9 - Grandma's Quote of the Day: "You gotta grow old otherwise you die young"

Random Thoughts

1) Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.

2) I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

3) There is a great need for sarcasm font.

4) How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

5) I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

6) MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.

7) Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

8) I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

9) Bad decisions make good stories

10) You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you've made up your mind that you just aren't doing anything productive for the rest of the day.

11) I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

12) I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Damnit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What'd you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?

13) I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

14) As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.

15) I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

16) I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with martinis than Kay.

Bonus Funnies:

I was so depressed last night thinking about the economy, government, healthcare, real estate prices, the stock market, the federal deficit, Iraq, Afghanistan, global warming, my savings, Social Security, credit card debt........I called the Suicide Hotline. ... I got a call center in Pakistan .....told them I was suicidal. They got all excited and asked if I could drive a truck

To Write Love On Her Arms Day

So today, this Friday the 13th, is To Write Love On Her Arms Day OR TWLOHA Day. I’ve been supporting this organization for 2 or 3 years now. TWLOHA is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for those struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire, and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery. It’s close to my heart for two reasons. One being I’ve known people, myself included, and I think this organization really helps and understands. Second, I love helping people and feel this is a great way. I encourage everyone to write the word love on their arms, wrists, hand…anywhere. It helps those who suffer know that there are people out their who understand and supports them. If you want more information you can go to http://www.twloha.com.

Money Frustrations

Well I'm sure I'm not the only one who worries about money. But it just seems that lately, within the last 4 months, that's the only thing that seems to be on my mind. The main reason for this is because my inability to do certain things. Just like most people, student loans paid my way through college. To the point where I'm in debt close to 100,000. Alot huh? Because of this, and the other bills i have, I can't do the things I would love to do. I would love to surprise my old roommate from college. Go to a concert to see a band that I love. Even go out on the town during the night. However, I can't because of money issues. I know I shouldn't let it run my life but it is. I hate it. The only solution is to get a better paying job but in this economy I'm lucky I even have one. I just don't know what to do. I'm so frustrated and feel left out but at this time there's nothing i can do. But for now I must suck it up and do what I can. Hopefully one day money won't be the one running my life. I can hope right?

Underage Pressure

So I have a sister who is younger. She's 17 and at that age where hanging out with friends is life. Hanging out with these friends often means drinking and drugs. The drug part isn't the part i'm writing about, thank god. It's the drinking. Being older and of course over the legal age of drinking, she turns to me to be her outlet for drinks. This puts me in a small bind. Of course I was her age once and yes I admit I drank. But I never asked anyone to get me anything. I would be a hypocite to tell her not to drink since that's what I did when I was her age, but my morals get in the way. I hate knowing that I supplied minors with alcohol and if they happen to get in trouble that could one day come back to me. Of course she's going to be mad. But I'm upset with the position she's putting me in by even asking. So until we talk face to face, I will continue to ignore her phone calls and text messages and pretend i'm either asleep, not home, or phone is on silent, or even all three.

Halloween

So I went to a Halloween party this weekend and became even more depressed about my life. The fact that I felt entirely over dressed in a short dress and fishnet stockings should clue you in on some of the scantily attired people. I seriously was amazed at some of the underwear people decided to use as Halloween costumes. The more I thought about it, the madder I became.
Not going to lie part of me was jealous. Never in a million years could I wear an outfit like that. I like food too much. And I have decided I am tired of apologizing for it. I really do not mean to pull out a soap box and start ranting, but yeah here it comes.
A big F U to our society that puts up these bill boards of size zero models. Ralph Lauren you should be ashamed of yourself for firing an overweight size four model. That is not realistic. Some of us have big girl genetics! The average size in America is a size twelve, so stop making me feel like I should be holed up in a dark place till I can come out a size two.
The message should be happy and healthy. Not constantly dieting and making myself and everyone around me miserable. So to all my non zero sized ladies pass me a tasty cake and a beer.