To Write Love On Her Arms Day

So today, this Friday the 13th, is To Write Love On Her Arms Day OR TWLOHA Day. I’ve been supporting this organization for 2 or 3 years now. TWLOHA is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for those struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire, and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery. It’s close to my heart for two reasons. One being I’ve known people, myself included, and I think this organization really helps and understands. Second, I love helping people and feel this is a great way. I encourage everyone to write the word love on their arms, wrists, hand…anywhere. It helps those who suffer know that there are people out their who understand and supports them. If you want more information you can go to http://www.twloha.com.

Money Frustrations

Well I'm sure I'm not the only one who worries about money. But it just seems that lately, within the last 4 months, that's the only thing that seems to be on my mind. The main reason for this is because my inability to do certain things. Just like most people, student loans paid my way through college. To the point where I'm in debt close to 100,000. Alot huh? Because of this, and the other bills i have, I can't do the things I would love to do. I would love to surprise my old roommate from college. Go to a concert to see a band that I love. Even go out on the town during the night. However, I can't because of money issues. I know I shouldn't let it run my life but it is. I hate it. The only solution is to get a better paying job but in this economy I'm lucky I even have one. I just don't know what to do. I'm so frustrated and feel left out but at this time there's nothing i can do. But for now I must suck it up and do what I can. Hopefully one day money won't be the one running my life. I can hope right?

Underage Pressure

So I have a sister who is younger. She's 17 and at that age where hanging out with friends is life. Hanging out with these friends often means drinking and drugs. The drug part isn't the part i'm writing about, thank god. It's the drinking. Being older and of course over the legal age of drinking, she turns to me to be her outlet for drinks. This puts me in a small bind. Of course I was her age once and yes I admit I drank. But I never asked anyone to get me anything. I would be a hypocite to tell her not to drink since that's what I did when I was her age, but my morals get in the way. I hate knowing that I supplied minors with alcohol and if they happen to get in trouble that could one day come back to me. Of course she's going to be mad. But I'm upset with the position she's putting me in by even asking. So until we talk face to face, I will continue to ignore her phone calls and text messages and pretend i'm either asleep, not home, or phone is on silent, or even all three.

Halloween

So I went to a Halloween party this weekend and became even more depressed about my life. The fact that I felt entirely over dressed in a short dress and fishnet stockings should clue you in on some of the scantily attired people. I seriously was amazed at some of the underwear people decided to use as Halloween costumes. The more I thought about it, the madder I became.
Not going to lie part of me was jealous. Never in a million years could I wear an outfit like that. I like food too much. And I have decided I am tired of apologizing for it. I really do not mean to pull out a soap box and start ranting, but yeah here it comes.
A big F U to our society that puts up these bill boards of size zero models. Ralph Lauren you should be ashamed of yourself for firing an overweight size four model. That is not realistic. Some of us have big girl genetics! The average size in America is a size twelve, so stop making me feel like I should be holed up in a dark place till I can come out a size two.
The message should be happy and healthy. Not constantly dieting and making myself and everyone around me miserable. So to all my non zero sized ladies pass me a tasty cake and a beer.